(and about you — at the quantum level we are inseparable)
I was an unplanned and unwanted child born in 19xx to an 18-year old mother and her 29-year old husband. My sister born 13 months later was also unplanned and unwanted. Both parents had personality disorders. Father’s personality disorder was marked by Sadism. Sadistic Personality Disorder was the most appropriate diagnosis for him. Mother was diagnosable as a Borderline Personality Disorder (aka Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder).
Father was the second of three children born to loving parents and his siblings were also loving parents. Mother was the eighth of ten children born to psychologically normal parents, although due to poverty she and many of her siblings were reared in an orphanage. There is evidence of mental instability among some of her siblings but mother was the only child to actively and persistently harm her own children.
Child abuse
Violence from our parents was the norm for my sister and I during childhood. Emotional abuse in various forms (e.g. constant criticism and verbal insults, mother often telling us nastily that we were unplanned and unwanted children, threats of violence, malicious deprivation of pleasurable activity, and habitual humiliation of me in front of other people by father) was also routine.
The violence was not corporal punishment (e.g. a moderate smack on the body as a means of behaviour control). I refer to severe and often uncontrolled violence by father and mother against their children that was completely unwarranted. For example, father often struck me about the head when I politely disagreed with his opinion. Sometimes this was with sufficient force to knock me off my feet, after which he would continue to assault me on the floor.
Mother often beat my sister savagely on one pretext or another. As examples, she struck my sister on the head with a large wooden spoon until blood poured out of her head; she beat my sister to the floor and then pulled her about by the hair; she sat on top of my sister after striking her to the floor and then beat her face.
Almost all of father’s violence against me was committed in the privacy of the home when no non-family members were present. Father was more likely to assault me when mother was present. Sometimes she explicitly encouraged him to hit me. Father instructed me to not discuss our family problems with anyone outside our family (e.g. schoolteachers). He told me that family troubles must remain within the family (attempts by the abuser to keep the abuse secret is typical of abusive relationships).
All of mother’s serious violence against my sister and I (e.g. throwing a heavy ceramic ashtray with full force at my head – with major brain damage or death a certainty if I had not moved in time) was committed in the privacy of the home and when father was out.
In the presence of people outside our immediate family, father and mother usually conducted themselves as strict but not obviously abusive parents. However there were abundant signs of emotional problems in both my sister and I that should have aroused suspicions of child abuse. It should have been obvious to our family doctor, our schoolteachers, and more insightful adult relatives and friends, that my sister and I were clinically depressed and anxious children. We both displayed symptoms (e.g. chronic sleep disturbance, nightmares, anxiety, depressed mood, academic underachievement) that should have sounded alarm bells for concerned adults. I do not know how our doctor (who had frequent contact with our family) missed the signs of emotional distress associated with the abuse.
At about age nine years I had what I now know to be a psychotic episode (frightening visual hallucinations that I still clearly remember) during the day after returning home from school. It occurred quite suddenly as I was standing in the dining room and I screamed continuously for what felt like about an hour. When the hallucinations finally stopped I became aware of worried-looking neighbours staring at me (the alarmed maid had called the neighbours). I found it embarrassing to face the neighbours after they witnessed my mental breakdown and the episode puzzled me for many years until I studied clinical psychology.
In reaction to my psychosis, mother was called home from work, father came home directly after work, and our family doctor visited me later in the day. The doctor did a routine medical assessment but he did not ask me any questions about my mental state or family experiences. This was yet another instance of this doctor failing to recognize the obvious signs of extreme emotional trauma in me and he did not make an effective intervention.
About a year later I was assessed briefly by a clinical psychologist and thereafter by a school psychologist. Both of them missed the child abuse and the focus remained on me as a “problem child,” i.e. they believed mother’s lies about me. However I am grateful that I was subsequently sent to boarding school for most of two years (at ages 11 and 12). I dreaded school holidays (we had to go home) but I cherished the respite from father and mother’s abuse.
On the basis of my professional experience of child abuse as a clinical psychologist (including many psychological assessments of children and their parents), I have no doubt that if father and mother’s child abuse had come to the attention of relevant authorities, my sister and I would have been removed from their home and father and mother would have been prosecuted.
Father and mother presented serious and potentially fatal dangers to the physical welfare of their children. They also failed to meet the emotional needs of these children to an extreme that severely endangered their psychological development. The least detrimental course of action for children in such a destructive family environment would have been to remove them from it as soon as possible, and to place them together permanently with suitable parents.
My attempts to discuss the abuse with the abusers
Since early childhood I gave both parents feedback about their destructive behaviour toward their children. I did this as best I could with the concepts and terminology available to me at the time. My parents always reacted negatively. Father’s typical response to my feedback was to threaten or perpetrate violence against me. Similarly, mother’s response to my reasonable challenges of her abusive conduct was always combative. These aggressive responses continued into my adulthood, although I ‘cured’ father of violence at age 21 by striking him as he tried to assault me. Mother continued her verbal (shouting insults and “I’ve got nothing to apologize for!”) and physical (throwing heavy items at me, trying to stab me with kitchen knives, etc) aggression toward me until I permanently cut her out of my life in early adulthood.
As is often the case with child abuse, my attempts at constructive discussion of the abuse with my parents failed completely.
Poems
I wrote the following poems about father and mother.
Feathers but No Flight (on my father)
He fought his felt inferiority – by attacking it in others,
he beat his kid heroically to soothe his own pain.
He donated his hurt with Red Cross charity,
stamping others’ joy with fireman commitment.
He squawked and sniffed when asked to explain,
sorry only for himself; the guts of a drawn bird.
He showed injured puzzlement when reminded of abuse,
crying “foul” with the backbone of poultry manure.
A man among birds, a brave amid children,
he snivelled the strong and tore at the weak.
A spineless, toothless avian ‘terror’, now scared to admit, frightened to explain,
trying to flee the answers like a farmyard chicken.
Raptor of nightmares, striker of living daylights,
the dreaded force that floored me at will – exposed as a birdman.
A remorseless bully, a pitiful coward, forever behaving according to type.
Challenged by the strong he lets out a squawk, then zig zags away . . .
feathers but no flight.
I’m Damned if You’ll Have What I Never Had! (on my mother)
Eighth of ten children; reared in an orphanage.
Married at seventeen; mother soon after.
An adult-sized child seething pain and anger.
She attacked her children
with cruel words and heavy fists,
crying “I’m damned if you’ll have what I never had!”
She suffered in her young unbearable reminders
of love and opportunity she never was afforded.
Her daughter especially meant all she was denied.
She beat the girl savagely ‘til blood ran from her head,
blaming her of wrongs for which she’d like the child dead,
crying “I’m damned if you’ll have what I never had!”
Her husband was equal in mental disorder.
Unable to bond they joined in common purpose
to persecute their kids for the bad that they stood.
They struck the boy’s head ‘til he went psychotic.
Husband snarled “you’re to blame for the craziness in my life”
as she cried “I’m damned if you’ll have what I never had!”
She could neither give nor receive selfless love.
But she crushed little hearts with the passion of Mary,
destroying other relationships and life opportunities.
Malicious secret phone calls to wreck special friendships
and manufactured crises before important exams,
crying “I’m damned if you’ll have what I never had!”
The chaos she first knew was the turmoil she created.
Of the evil in her heart she freely gave,
singing empty songs in various churches.
Calling attention of doctor and all who would hear
a ‘caring’ mother’s tale of demonic children
who were damned ‘cause they couldn’t have what she never had.
Asked why she abused her children as she did,
what wicked intent she nursed within.
She stood feet apart with fists on hips
and glared at my face with malice and triumph.
“I don’t have to apologize for my deeds” she said,
“I was damned if you’d have what I never had.”
Education and Work
I borrowed money from a bank to study full-time, worked full-time to study part-time, and eventually completed a bachelors degree majoring in Economics and Psychology, an honours degree in Psychology, a masters degree in Clinical Psychology, and a doctorate in Clinical Psychology. I was extremely fortunate to benefit from many favourable falls of the dice / divine intervention when I was accepted onto courses and when senior academics saw potential in me and encouraged me.
The difference between me going as far as I did academically and not even finishing school, was at the discretion of God through people who helped me along the way. This includes a lecturer whom I never met (during study by correspondence) who wrote highly encouraging comments on my assignments, and then a professor who became a major inspiration in my life — he had a massive positive influence on my studies, work and life in general. But for those acts of divine intervention, I have no doubt that my adulthood would have been disastrous.
As it happened, after my first full-time job as a locomotive fireman (I shovelled coal on a steam engine — by far the hardest work I have ever done) I then worked in economics and human resources before going on to work 30 years as a fully-qualified clinical psychologist, in private practice for the last 20 of those years. I understand from the feedback of clients and referrers that I was a good clinical psychologist — insightful, creative and cost-effective.
Integrity and professionalism. I have never been charged with a criminal offence, never been investigated for professional misconduct, and was still in good standing with my professional bodies (Health and Care Professions Council; British Psychological Society — I was registered as a Chartered Clinical Psychologist) when I voluntarily deregistered.
Marriage and Children
In my younger years I was fortunate to have loving girlfriends, some of whom would have been good wives and mothers. However due to the psychological effects of my childhood trauma I was unable to cope with the demands of anticipated marriage and parenthood. Therefore I tended to sabotage those relationships. I found it easier to cope with relationships when the woman did not expect marriage and parenthood was not an issue, e.g. she already had children or she did not want / could not have children. Therefore I tended to cope better with partner-relationships over later years. To the best of my knowledge, I never fathered a child. As I never received effective parenting, I was ill-equipped for the role of parent and am relieved that I was never in a position where I too might harm a child.
Social and Hobbies
My social network has atrophied over the years. A partial explanation for this situation is that I stopped paid work at the end of 201x and moved to a different part of the British Isles (I could not afford to keep my house). Also, some of my friends have died and others are in poor health.
My pastimes include making sculpture, playing the piano, gardening (vegetables, other edible plants, companion plants), harvesting wild food (e.g. seaweed, hand-line fishing from the rocks), cooking wholesome meals, countryside walking, bird watching, wine making, and ongoing study of local plants and animals.
Religion and Spiritual
I am not religious. I know the truth about God, heaven, karma, etc. I am aware of God’s presence and often experience spiritual communication via dreams and events during waking consciousness.
Mental Health Difficulties
I have ongoing coping difficulties as a direct result of my childhood traumas. One of my most debilitating symptoms is a tendency toward nightmares in response to certain types of social and occupational situations. As with my other symptoms of psychological trauma, I have suffered the nightmares since childhood. Due to the associated hyperventilation (results in high pH and abnormal physiology throughout the next day, causing anxiety, depression, poor concentration and memory), and the persistence of the nightmares across many nights usually, at times my work and social functioning has been impaired, e.g. having to cancel many appointments or perform poorly compared to my usual self.
I am not on any medication and have never used medication for mental health issues. Due to my negative personal experience of doctors, psychologists and psychiatrists during childhood and early adulthood, corroborated by my later observation of their work as a colleague, I have a low regard for the mental health ‘care’ industry and would never again subject myself to it as a patient / client. As with other institutions, health care and mental health care in particular is often inadequate and even harmful.
Summary
I and many other people, including my sister and many of my clients, suffered childhoods characterized by the absence of love, persistent rejection, intense hostility (verbal and physical aggression), and lost opportunities for normal bio-psycho-social development. Further, the consequent difficulties in coping with adulthood much compounded the destructive experience of our formative years.
Learning Points
In my personal and professional experience, survivors of child abuse understand the importance of truth, they are sensitive to spiritual beauty, and they are deeply compassionate about the suffering of others. Ways in which such people reveal these qualities include writing, art, music composition, healing others (psychological, spiritual), and activism on behalf of those who cannot defend themselves (e.g. abused children, abused animals, creatures suffering in this human-caused mass extinction) and those who are not sufficiently aware of the truth to defend themselves (e.g. against the attack on our societies by a psychopathic cabal). Truth, spiritual beauty and compassion are discussed further below.
Truth
If relevant authorities (e.g. doctors, teachers, social workers, police) knew the truth about the abuse it would have stopped. Similarly, when there is sufficient public awareness of other destructive behaviour (e.g. against nature and society) it is likely to stop. “Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that their deeds will be exposed.” (John 3:20)
Spiritual beauty
To honest people truth is beautiful (e.g. aesthetic considerations such as symmetry and simplicity are used in theoretical physics and cosmology to define truth, outside of empirical considerations) and most precious. Therefore they will often show exceptional courage and commitment in pursuing truth even at the risk of significant personal suffering, e.g. social disapproval, prosecution, financial loss and physical attack.
Compassion
Personal suffering is the only way in which we can truly appreciate the suffering of others. This empathy is essential to the development of compassion and it can generate enormous effort to try prevent or alleviate the suffering of others.
Final Comment
I know of many abused people who were not destined to stay long in this world (e.g. they died of substance misuse, reckless behaviour, suicide) or who struggled on bearing crosses of serious mental illness and often physical illness as well. Whatever our personal experience of this world, scientific evidence (e.g. the generation of all events from the quantum vacuum, i.e. God; and brain imaging studies showing that ‘conscious’ impulses actually arise from an unconscious level, i.e. God) indicates that all creations are part of a cosmic evolutionary process. Further, we know that the worldly aspect of this process will be no more than a hazy dream when we continue life in a realm of infinite knowledge, beauty and love, i.e. heaven.
Best wishes, Aspects of Mind
Aspects of Mind 
I found your autobiography deeply moving. Your childhood must have been dreadful. Yet you managed not only to survive, but overcome it. That is a resounding triumph. The poems about your parents are both poignant and insightful.
Evil exists in the world b/c free will exists. Some choose that ugly path. The fact others do not — that they strive to live lives of integrity and compassion, despite the pain they may have endured — is important.
As a Christian, I believe in an eternal reckoning. There is no possibility of justice in earthly terms for some atrocities. But God, I believe, will render justice in the hereafter. May He watch over you till then.
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Anna I appreciate your thoughtful and positive comments. Thank you. You are highly perceptive and compassionate. Yes, it was a dreadful childhood.
As you said, people can control their destructive impulses. They choose to do / not do evil. Yes, suffering is a potential resource that can increase spiritual awareness and compassion. I also agree about eternal reckoning. Beyond the life review soon after death, I understand from Emanuel Swedenborg that our level of being in the spiritual world is according to our level of God-conscious living in this world.
I have felt God’s presence since childhood and this awareness increased across my adulthood, likely due to regular meditation since my early 20s. I often have significant spiritual experiences, usually in dreams. For example, my friend’s son (an exceptionally good person, only in his mid 20s, and whom I knew since he was a little boy) hanged himself three years ago, within days of starting to take SSRI antidepressant medication (it is well documented that SSRIs can rapidly cause a person to become actively suicidal). On the night of his death I encountered my friend’s son in a heavenly dream. He was in a palatial building of sublime beauty. We had a detailed conversation (by thought transfer) in which he explained why he was there. I was struck by his wisdom, serenity and bliss.
I wrote the dream down after awakening. Later in the day my friend contacted me to share the tragic news of his son’s passing. I told him about the dream, which he and his wife found comforting. As a transparently loving person, clearly his son had gone straight to heaven exactly as Emanuel Swedenborg describes. I’ve had many other dream encounters with people around the time of their passing but that is the only time I saw someone who went directly to heaven.
So yes, heaven is real, hell is real, and people who choose the opposite of God-conscious behaviour will spend eternity in hell.
Thank you Anna. Very best wishes to you.
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Hello, ”aspectsofmind”
I know well of beatings, and similar behaviour, that I also suffered during my childhood.
I can remember being beaten by my father, until a passed out, while my mother stood and watched. I was about 3 years old!
From others of my generation, including one of my cousins, parents beating children, to alleviate their frustrations, seems to be a common phenomena of the end of and post war period.
I can remember visiting my grandmother when I was around 8-9, and finding my cousin, 6 months younger than me, standing naked on the bed in the spare bedroom, with my grandmother, her mother and an aunt in attendance, and my cousin was black a, from the back of he knees to her neck, from a beating by her father.
His usual behaviour was to come home drunk late at night, charge into my cousins bedroom, and commence beating her. Even as an adult, in her late 20’s she had to sleep with a light on, all night!
(She was the first born, and a cuckoo.)
As for me, my mother was 28 when she married my father, also a ”shotgun” wedding, very old for those days, but my mother got herself pregnant to get a husband. My father eventually realised that he had been trapped, and thats when the beatings started.
He was Belgian, and had not realised that in England a Church wedding was also a fully legal civil wedding
e you, I could write pages or even a small book, of my experiences this is not really the place for it.
I have a mate from the RAF, and ask any of HIS family what they remember from their childhood, and their answer is ”The beatings.”
It seems that the adage, ”Spare the rod, and spoil the child,” was still the rule!
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Sulky Keyboard problem!
This should read;
”….and my cousin was black and blue, from the back of he knees to her neck, from a beating by her father.”
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Sulky Keyboard-2
Should read;
Like you, I could write pages or even a small book, of my experiences but this is not really the place for it.
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I have a theory, or hypothesis, and maybe you would like to comment, as your expertise is in ”mind
stuff.”
Homo Sapiens is obviously more intelligent than Neanderthal man, although, from some reports, there are those that might dispute that.
However, its been established that Neanderthals brain was actually larger than H.S.
In the early 70’s I lived near a computer centre that carried out computational work for banks. It was contained in a huge multi-story building with a marbled entrance, complete with enormous, crystal chandeliers. It also had an enormous generator house next to it, to supply power if the grid failed.
It probably had less computing power than a pocket scientific calculator does today!
So, its probably not size, but brain connections that make for intelligence.
Some people ask, ”What will the next genetic development for H S be?”
To me the answer is obvious, it will be another ‘quantum leap’ in brain power, as occurred from Neanderthal to H.S. and it may already be starting.
It is known, from what I have read, that if the brain of a baby is overloaded, during its development, some parts will shut down to protect itself. Consequently, those parts will miss the ”window of opportunity” during the development period, and will therefore never fully develop in those regions. These are often the social skills development, and may result in what is labeled as autism. Or ”elements of the autism spectrum.”
Nicola Tesla, was a genius of his time. He spent his early childhood wandering in the peace and solitude of the countryside, absorbing information.
Therefore, the next genetic leap may be a massive increase in brain connections, but simultaneously an equivalent increase in fragility of the brain. This would require that the baby’s brain is not overloaded, by excessive input, in its early development.
Given today’s ‘information overload,’ with TV, computers, mobile phones, etc. etc. such babies would very likely be overloaded.
There is an epidemic of autism, reported in the USA, that seems to develop during the children’s early years.
What are your thoughts?
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Oh! P.S.
I am also aware of the damage that psychiatric drugs can cause. (NO one has ever been cured of anything, by taking them, they are not designed to cure, but to cause dependency, so ‘big pharma’ can feed you their crap till you die!)
I was prescribed one, (that I took on trust, and will never do so again) during a particularly stressful period of my life, when I had a problem with insomnia. It was totally unsuitable for that.
It also brought me to the point when there seemed little point in continuing my misery, BUT, my ”guardian angel” came to my assistance, and I researched my problem, (serotonin deficiency, caused by excess monoamine oxidase caused by the drug.) formulated a remedy, followed the remedy, and, I’m still here to prove that my remedy worked.😊:-)
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Hello niklar55, thank you for sharing your personal experiences and your thought-provoking comments.
“Like you, I could write pages or even a small book, of my experiences but this is not really the place for it.” Nik you (and anyone else) are welcome to share your experiences here and people are also welcome to e-mail me about their experiences if they want to (details under Personal Stress Management / Writing Therapy).
Changes in parenting. Yes Nik, violence toward children seems to have been more common in previous generations and often justified with “spare the rod and spoil the child” even in cases of blatant child abuse such as you describe in your good examples.
Homo Sapiens vs Neanderthal man. Like yourself I’m interested in this comparison, including the larger brains of Neanderthals. More recently I’ve followed the work of psychologist Prof Kevin MacDonald (his site is Occidental Observer http://www.theoccidentalobserver.net/ ) who has written about the hijacking of academic institutions and media to serve political agendas and not science. In particular, I’ve seen reference to deliberately misleading HS / Neanderthal comparisons.
Brain size and intelligence. Research shows a relationship between human intelligence and brain size and number of neurons (nerve cells) in the brain. Further, there are substantial differences between races in average IQ, e.g. the work of psychologists Prof Richard Lynn http://www.iapsych.com/iqmr/fe/LinkedDocuments/lynn2010.pdf and Prof J. Philippe Rushton http://www.harbornet.com/folks/theedrich/JP_Rushton/Race.htm Consistent with these intelligence differences are the racial differences in propensity to commit crimes, e.g. violent crimes. https://en.metapedia.org/wiki/Race_and_crime I mention these findings — with genuine respect for all races and our equally important roles in the world — because this subject has been deliberately misrepresented by an evil cabal that is harming our societies in ways that include using race to divide and conquer us. There are educational articles on this subject on Occidental Observer (link above) by Prof MacDonald and other honest academics. We value truth, we value all people irrespective of race, and we do not want the problems this cabal is causing for *all* of us — including their needless wars in the Middle East and genocides. Sunlight (truth) is the best antiseptic against their evil.
Next genetic development for HS. Nik as you might know, forecasters such as Raymond Kurzweil have been discredited (e.g. Peter Russell’s article Get Real Ray https://www.peterrussell.com/wordpress/index.php?p=270) and for reasons discussed in Peter Russell’s Blind Spot http://www.peterrussell.com/blindspot/blindspot.php it is deceptively difficult to predict the future. However we can be certain that this ecological collapse (https://evolutionofconsciousness.health.blog/2020/02/01/holocene-extinction/) will impact humans in ways that most people do not yet realize.
Influences on child development. As you indicated, there are many important biological and psychological factors. This includes findings of adverse health effects from vaccinations (e.g. in relation to autism) and exposure to radiation of wireless telecommunication, e.g. cell phones and wireless Internet, especially 5G.
Psychiatric drugs. I strongly agree about the hazards of these substances and am glad you found an alternative remedy. 🙂 The self-serving agenda of ‘big pharma’ is evident even as one approaches death from cancer. I found this article for a close friend who is dying of cancer and must decide whether or not to have chemotherapy. https://www.icnr.com/articles/ischemotherapyeffective.html Her doctor said the usual “It will increase your chances of survival by 50%” but the article reveals that such claims are highly misleading.
“Nicola Tesla, was a genius of his time.” Absolutely, and it’s good to see you honour his name Nik. 🙂
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EMP…ElectroMagnetic Pollution.
Up to the age of around ten years old, I was an early bird kid, up before my parents and exploring the world. Then at around ten years old I suddenly changed. I stayed in bed until the last possible second, and then had to run, and later pedal like hell to get to school. This constant tiredness followed me into adulthood. Also, the effect was far worse during daylight hours than during darkness, and I never understood why. It was even noticed by my work colleagues, when I was on shift work. One evening someone commented, ”Oh, it must be around eight o’clock, Nik’s waking up!”
Then, recently, I read a book, the title of which was mentioned in an article I’d read on the net. [Heaven Bless the Net!]
The book was, ”The Invisible Rainbow” by Arthur Firstenberg. and it followed the emergence of ”modern diseases’ like heart problems, cancers and many others and how they coincided with the introduction of electricity. In the USA, where deaths and causes were recorded, it could be seen that two towns only fifty miles apart, in one people were dying of ”modern” diseases, and the other not. The first had electricity, the second didn’t. More recently, the small state of Bhutan which had ‘miraculously’ been totally free of ‘modern diseases’ had electricity introduced, and now enjoys modern diseases like the rest of the world!
So what had happened when I was ten years old? Well, THE most powerful RADAR scanners ever, were switched on in Suffolk, where I lived, for the ”Three Minute Warning” of approaching Russian missiles. Not for the UK’s benefit, but the USA.
The remaining problem was, why worse during daylight hours?
Then one day more recently, I came across a diagram of the Ionosphere and the effect of solar wind, and all became clear. https://www.researchgate.net/publication/226225641/figure/fig1/AS:302196517294089@1449060672804/Diagram-of-solar-wind-plasma-forcing-of-a-non-magnetized-planetary-atmosphere-ionosphere.png
During daylight hours, all the EMP is compressed between the ionosphere, and the planets’ surface, and so is concentrated. During darkness, the ionosphere billows out like a spinnaker so the pollution is dissipated.
Also, my guess is that ”Chronic Fatigue Syndrome,” is the result of EMP. [Syndrome being a word doctors use when they don’t have a clue as to the cause.]
As a side issue, the first reports of covid in Wuhan were, ”The doctors had never seen anything like it, the victims’ lungs were smashed and bleeding!” As this has never been reported since, it cannot be a typical effect of covid. It is however, a typical effect of microwave injury to the lungs. Microwaves cause the iron molecules in the blood to explode. Just coincidentally, Wuhan, was one of the first cities in the world to have ”blanket 5G”! Also just coincidentally, it had a laboratory, that had been paid several million dollar$ by US agents to work with covid type viruses. Then covid appeared almost simultaneously on five more continents. Also not typical of the way viruses spread. That would have required five infected people to simultaneously fly from Wuhan to five continents.
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Nik your comments about EMP are all consistent with what I’ve read elsewhere and my personal experience of feeling unwell when close to this computer, especially if an additional monitor is switched on.
Also, the diagram to which you linked is helpful for understanding the effect of solar wind on the Ionosphere.
Fortunately we can start to address the EMP problem when people are ready to remove the criminals in control of our societal levers from power.
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I worked with long distance wireless telecommunications in the RAF, and we bounced our transmissions off the ionosphere. At around sunrise and sunset, the ionosphere changes its distance from the planets surface, so the angle of bounce changes. We had to change frequencies to compensate.
That’s why I made the connection between the EMP being trapped and reflected back and forth during daylight hours, but during darkness it can escape, so is less concentrated.
The ‘Flu’ was originally recognised as a non transmissible sickness, and was caused by an influence.
So it was called ”influenca.” That has now been respelled influenza, and is supposed to be a virus, but its a scam that makes billions in fake vaccines every year. I had one flu vax, and I was sick for a week afterwards. That was probably 20 or more years ago. I’ve not had a vax since, nor have I had flu!
Every cell in your body uses the planets natural frequency of around 8 hz to regulate its functions. When that frequency is disrupted, then your cells malfunction, and that causes aches and pains. [Often interpreted as tiredness.] When comets passed close they disrupted the Earth’s magnetic field, and caused sickness in sensitive people, Hence their association with sickness and pestilence, because it was not just humans that were affected. all life forms were. Trouble is, that now most people live in cities, they don’t see the effects on other life forms.
Ultra low frequency, undersea transmissions, for submarines are probably the cause of mass beachings by dolphins and similar.
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Very interesting info from you Nik.
After their deliberately harmful CV-19 “vaccines,” I would not touch anything from the murderous jews.
As you might have read, in addition to being an ingredient of the so-called CV-19 “vaccine,” graphene oxide has also been found in so-called flu “vaccines.”
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I have also had a mild brush with cancer.
I had a ‘wet scab’ develop on my calf muscle.
TWO specialist dermatologists, diagnosed it as, ”infected psoriasis” and ”psoriasis”!
I told both of them that I had had psoriasis, ant that the problem I had was not that.
They were both too ‘educated’ to believe me.
However, a biopsy identified it as actinic keratosis, a form of skin cancer.
There was, and is, nothing in the French health service that can have any effect on it.
It started as a small scab about 5-6 mm dia. and eventually had spread to about the diameter of a tennis ball.
One morning I awoke with an ”instruction” in my head, to go into one particular field of mine, of several, and find a plant to treat it with. I followed the instruction, found a wild plant with white milky sap, applied the sap, and that one application killed it! I found a cream on sale on Amazon.com, which uses the same sap, which I applied to a small spot on my eyebrow over a period of a month or two. That eventually cleared up as well.
The plant is ”Petty Spurge” and is an old, well known cure for the problem. Only two countries health services in the world, have licenced a product using petty spurge, for the treatment of skin cancer. They are Sweden, and New Zealand.
This link shows a picture that will aid identification; https://www.inaturalist.org/guide_taxa/1028510
The identifying characteristic is the flower/seedpods, and the white milky sap when a leaf is pulled off
There are many pictures on the web that are simply wrong!
Also whilst researching for a herbal remedy, I came across another remedy, Apricot Kernels. These are said to contain a poison that is deadly to cancer cells but harmless to normal cells. I started taking three per day. I de-pipped a date, and replaced it with three apricot kernels. I had a couple more small outbreaks of A-keratosis, but they died quickly.
Apricot kernels are also said to be effective against other cancers. One comment was from a chap whose wife had been diagnosed with a terminal cancer, and took one per pound of body weight, which he said cured her cancer. If they cant do you harm, then they are certainly worth a try.
All ‘chemo’ does, from my observations, is screw up the immune system, and make masses of cash for big pharma.
Hope this is helpful to someone.
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Nik thanks for all your excellent information about the treatment of cancer.
About chemo-“therapy,” yes, that enriches big pharma at the cost of the patient’s remaining life. I saw it in my girlfriend who seemed relatively well and able to enjoy her life but suffered brain damage, ruined quality of life, and hastened death after chemo-“therapy.”
I’ve made a note of the natural treatments you mentioned. I was aware of the plant sap but not the Apricot kernels. I did try the plant sap on an actinic keratosis and it worked.
Normally I use Fluorouracil (trade names include Efudex) on actinic keratoses because it works fast.
I think it’s important to be aware of natural treatments such as you mentioned in advance of needing them because we might not be well enough to do the necessary research and make informed treatment decisions when we are sick. What I have seen is that unprepared people basically hand their lives over to doctors / big pharma and suffer the consequences of their naivete.
On the topic of natural treatment, I made my own tinctures, including an antibacterial tincture that even kills drug-resistant bacteria. During jews’ lock-down bullshit I suffered a bacterial infection that rapidly made me very ill. Fortunately I was able to get out of bed occasionally to take a few drops of the tincture. I was concerned that I might die if the tincture did not work as expected. However, amazingly, I started feeling better within a day and within a week I had recovered (apart from fatigue that persisted for a few weeks thereafter).
I am especially interested in the cancer treatments that you mentioned because I am at risk of getting a more serious skin cancer. I lived the first 40 years of my life in South Africa with ferocious sun exposure due to my lifestyle. I have had many actinic keratoses treated in various ways, plus several basal cell carcinomas cut out. None of that is too serious if treated early but it is associated with a risk of getting something more aggressive, the worst being a melanoma.
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On the subject of EMP, there’s a possible solution to alleviate the problem.
It’s called ”Faraday Cloth”! It can be bought online, but is a bit expensive. [AliExpress.com is one source.]
It’s a cloth made with metal strands, and these will catch and absorb EMP, but must not touch the skin. You would probably need a trailing wire to earth or ground the electricity it collects.
I met a pharmacist, who told me his girlfriend used it when she had to visit Paris, as she was also sensitive to EMP.
I would guess something like a shawl, or cape, combined with a wide brimmed hat, and slacks would be required.
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Nik thanks very much for your detailed information about ”Faraday Cloth.” That seems to be the best protection against EMP. I will look into this subject.
On a related point, my plants that previously flourished at the front of my home have died or are struggling since “smart” meters were installed very close to those plants. Also, insects like butterflies and bees seem to avoid that area now, but that could be explained by the lack of flowers since the biologically destructive “smart” meters were installed.
Incidentally, I tried to help prevent the “smart” meter roll-out here but neighbours were apathetic and did not want to help stop the roll-out. Eventually it was me vs the electricity company with them giving me the option of accepting the “smart” meter or them not supplying electricity to this property.
Nik the tyranny of the psychopathic gangsters in control of our societal levers is bullshit. We can end this tyranny. There are now enough awake people world-wide to serve justice on these evil-doers.
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There’s a very simple solution to ”smart meters!”
When one was installed in my house, (mandatory) I started getting aches and pains all over, same as I get during daylight, but worse. As it only occurred AFTER the meter was installed, the cause was obvious.
So, I wrapped it in kitchen cooking foil, and then connected a wire from the foil to the earth or ground point on the meterpoint connections.
Problem solved!
NINE years working with radio equipment in the military has shown itself to be useful, even if my ‘career’ was a disaster. I never really regarded the RAF as a long term career, just a stepping stone, to get me away from suffolk and my mother, and to get a basic career training. The career training was rubbish, and very basic, but that together with my own studies has come in useful.
On the Keratosis, matter, coincidentally, my problem also probably stems from South Africa!
I spent a months holiday in Georgetown with my ex, and my daughter, My ex hogged the parasole and I got very badly burned being in the sun all day, without shade, and being very fair skinned. (I had white hair as a kid.) Also my father was very insistent that I got a tan when I was small, even though I instinctively avoided the direct sun. (It burned).
On the subject of nature and mobile phones, from the book I mentioned, they found that if you placed a mobile phone under a beehive, the bees would quickly desert the hive. Also, the mass bee deaths are probably due to emp and mobile phone transmissions.
There’s a picture on the net where a large clipped ornamental hedge type shrub has had a mobile phone transmitter installed next to it, and that side of the shrub is dead.
My suspicion is, that 5G is being installed to cause mass ‘covid’ type sickness, and transmission strength will be turned up and down, to cause outbreaks at will all over the world, and of course the accompanying lockdowns-vaccines-travel restrictions, and other controls.
Also, that the original ”Wuhan outbreak” was probably caused by 5G as NO evidence has ever been produced to link it with the ”suspect lab.”
Cheers, Nik.
PS where are you resident at present.
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Nik thanks for your affordable and effective solution to the “smart meter” problem! I will use kitchen cooking foil on that meter.
Like yourself in some ways perhaps, my way forward in early life was about trying to make the best of limited opportunities.
I was born and grew up in Durban but moved away as soon as I could and lived in various parts of South Africa until age 40, when I moved to England. I was fortunate to get work in Chichester, where I also bought a house.
As I wanted to retire from psychology, I sold my house and moved to Isle of Man in 2015. It is fantastically beautiful here but the land is being ruined by housing “developments.”
I used to get on well with the locals until pan-vaxx drove a wedge between those who do / do not know real politics. People here are very naive about jewish psychopathy but perhaps no more so than people I know in England and South Africa. I expect the pain of reality (e.g. deaths from vaxx-induced illness) to help the awakening.
Yes, it’s easy to get brutally sunburnt in South Africa and apparently a single episode of severe sunburn predisposes cancer in later life. As a fair-skinned person I got sunburnt often until I realized the danger and tried to avoid getting burnt again.
Yes, the 5G agenda is sinister, including its role in the Cabal’s intended brutal world government.
I’m encouraged by the prophecies of Siener van Rensburg (Boer) and Alois Irlmaier (German) who saw a dramatic failure of the NWO / JWO project. According to them, in the aftermath of WW3 justice will be served on the evil-doers.
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There is a lot of presentations on Y/T regarding the anunnaki, and their role in allegedly genetically engineering the human race, and its food. As your articles have also suggested. One article I read suggested that the farmed crops were for their own consumption, as the major crops were copper rich, whereas humans need iron rich food. The only animals that I’m aware of that need copper are horseshoe crabs, that have blue blood. The ”gods” of old were often depicted as having blue skin. This would suggest that they needed copper rich diets, hence the copper rich crops they had humans develop and farm.
They are supposed to have departed for somewhere interstellar.
However, my thoughts are that some of them, or their descendents may still be around, and are in hiding, but are in fact still manipulating humanity through proxies. ie your jewish influence.
Perhaps, even, they could have returned, and been aghast at how the human race has proliferated, and developed. Consequently, have decided to trim the population down, and eliminate as much of the dross as possible. (There’s plenty of that. Just a few news items of gang raids on supermarkets and department stores in the USA shows how things have developed there. It has also spread to other countries. It was recently tried in Oxford St. but was unsuccessful. Also in Argentina.)
A couple of engineered world wars, didn’t really achieve much, but the looming climate cooling catastrophe will do the job very effectively. All they need to do, is to secure a sufficient number of humans to survive into the new ice world, for their nefarious purposes.
I dont think a WW3 would suit them, as it would destroy too much infrastructure that will be needed in the new ”Ice World Order.”
I think I may be in a very small minority outside of those directly involved, perhaps of one as I’ve seen no other comments along those lines, that have realised the real reason for the Global Warming-CO2 scam.
The fact that the change could be detected, and its time specified from core drillings of a minimum of 100,000 years ago shows that it must be very distinct. It would consist of a sudden disappearance of pollen and leaf debris, and a change to tundra plant debris, then, none at all if snow became a permanent feature.
The climate in the UK would switch rapidly to that of the ”Little Ice Age” when thousands died of starvation. [Not often mentioned!] The L.I.A. was probably a forerunner of the real event to come, caused by the solar system plunging though the outer edges of the arm of the galaxy.
You may need to use double sided sticky tape to secure your kitchen foil around the smart meter. THE most important component is the ”earth strap” or wire from the foil to a good earth point.
As the meters are read remotely, there should be no need to remove the foil for meter readings, unless you want to check them yourself. In that case just cut out a small frame over the display, and mark the controls with a felt tip.
You could shield you plants in a similar manner by putting an earthed shield between the plants and the meter, close to the meter.
I can understand your problems with the locals. The propaganda against antisemitism, and the laws, is very pervasive and strong. It’s best to just refer to them as the banking cartel. Most people hate banks. 😉
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Nik concerning the continued presence of ETs on Earth and the collaboration of some ETs with humans, I’ve seen articles and videos that refer to evidence in support of that situation. As far as I can tell, it is the Grey ETs (the short ones in particular) that have been / are collaborating with the US military.
The modern structures on Mars (shown in the post Highly advanced life on Mars now) suggest that the Anunnaki remain present on Mars and are therefore able to easily visit Earth. Subtle indications that I have picked up from various articles suggest that the Anunnaki are involved with humans in Europe to some extent. However I cannot cite any reported evidence to prove that.
In addition to the benevolent Anunnaki and psychopathic Greys, there is a reliable report of another ET species / sub-species visiting Earth during recent years. That creature (perhaps a reptilian of some sort) is extremely powerful and aggressive (details in Aliens 3).
Although some people claim that there are about 60 ET species in contact with Earth, presently I am only aware of reliable evidence for 3 species.
Yes, evidence (crop preference, depiction in art) of the ET gods (Anunnaki in my view) having blue blood seems convincing. I wrote a preliminary draft of a post on that subject that I hope to finish off soon.
I also agree that the gang raids on shops is a sign of much worse to come. As a race realist (can’t be anything else after living in South Africa) I have long said that the jew has built racial bonfires in European countries that he can ignite when it suits him. That + the jew-jab die-off + the collapse of modern agriculture with falling temperatures suggests massive human depopulation approaches.
Concerning Cabal preparations to try survive the ice world, consistent with your comment, I am aware of jews / insiders buying land closer to the equator. I recently saw a reliable report of quiet buying of farms in South Africa by jews. However, I expect that when they lose their power base in WW3, the jews will be promptly kicked out of South Africa as per van Rensburg prophecy.
Your expectation of rapid cooling based on ice core data is consistent with what I’ve learned about this subject. Recently a commenter on Electroverse echoed my concerns that Earth has been cooling during this solar cycle uptrend — an abnormal situation that warns of the risk that we are now in a period of accelerated cooling.
Nik thanks also for your practically helpful extra information about applying and earthing the kitchen foil on smart meters and shielding plants. I think many people could benefit from that advice.
I agree that it would likely be more effective to talk about jew evil with regular people in terms of “the banking cartel.” I can see where I’ve been going wrong. 🙂
Incidentally, I am aware that my blog could be censored out of existence at any time, even though it is tame compared to most of the blogs that I follow. You are welcome to contact me via my e-mail address if ever you want to or at least have it for future reference: AspectsofMind@protonmail.com
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